Quick!

This is a quick one.  Committing myself again.  I have been on a destructive path of crap eating and not enough exercise.  It ends tomorrow!  I have goals!  The way I have been treating my body lately surely won't help me achieve my goals.  Back to holding myself accountable.

Friday Night....meh!

     I ended up eating some toffee popcorn last night.  Again with the habit thing.  I need to just remember WHY I am doing this challenge and that I am doing it.  I sometimes forget.  I really need to be strict about this for a few more weeks, my career is on the line.  The good part is it was one small bowl...those small pyrex bowls you use for ice cream or putting pre-chopped ingredients.  After I thought about it, I stopped eating more.  Now, to get me start, I don't feeling guilty about eating the popcorn.  It happens and normally it would be an acceptable treat, even though it's "not paleo".  The only issue right  now is that i know it stalls my weight loss and the weight loss is a priority right now.

Today we are working on getting ready for the move by cleaning and de-cluttering.  That feels good.  Surprisingly, the boys are actually being helpful.  Taking forever but still helpful.


I have decide to just keep track of what i eat on paper and not use the websites, I am just not being really consistent with it.  I find writing it easier, and my goal isn't to count carbs or calories, but to just make sure I am getting nutrient dense foods and not too much treat stuff, like chocolate, etc.

So far today:

breakfast:
coffee with heavy cream and one teaspoon raw sugar
3 slices bacon
honey dew melon....meh probably about a cup
lunch:
2 oz lamb chop
2-3 oz poterhouse

Blah! Need new habits!

So, I did great with walking hte dog, then I had a massive headache last night and went to bed super early.  Tonight?  I just flat forgot.  I need to make sure I get that in.  She needs it as much as I do!

On the other hand, my eating has been great!  Savage Dave brought home porterhouse AND t-bone for dinner.  Who's a lucky girl?!?!  Yeah that's right...me!  We also had some grilled taters and onions and brussels sprouts.  Mmmmm, I love eating this way.  Not saying I don't' like my treats now and then, but seriously, I don't understand how someone can get bored with such good food!

The Savage Baby was moved out of our room tonight....operation get mommy more sleep is underway!  I hope it works.  I need to be able to sleep a good night in order to get well.  THe long all night stuff is killing me.  Plus, when he is in our bed her is rough and kicks Savage Dave...which he doesn't seem to think is fun. A night to myself with no baby in the bed, will do wonders for my neck and back pain

I had a great workout today!  My hamstrings are already sore, I am sure the morning will be rough...lol.

Well, twenty minutes until bedtime.  More tomorrow!

Disaster Averted!

Sometimes patients will bring us treats to thank us for a job well done.  Even though I talk to most people about how I eat and why (it comes up, I don't force it on others), they seem to just not quite get it that I don't eat wheat.  So, these yummy
looking baked goods came into the clinic today:

I *think* they were brownies or chocolate cake.  I can't say for sure because I didn't even open the package.  Some people would say, just eat the food.  But, I didn't WANT to eat the food.  I know it would make me feel like crap physically, and who wants that?  I had some cottage cheese with blueberries and some dark chocolate instead.  No regrets :D

So,maybe they don't look as yummy to you, but I really enjoy berries with various forms of creamy yumminess!  And now I can enjoy my hot cocoa (heavy cream, coconut milk, maple syrup and cocoa powder) and relish the fact that I didn't let the cake/brownie control me.  Does this mean I will never, ever eat another brownie?  Hell no!  I love me some brownies.  It just means that today was not the day for them.  Those brownies were not the ones that needed me to eat them.  When I come across the brownies that speak to my soul...well, those brownies I WILL eat and I'll enjoy every last bite.  No regrets.

Day two...good to go!